Abba, You long for us to truly know You. May we be ever aware of your loving gaze upon us, yes, Lord, even the secret places of our soul. You alone give us life. O Spirit, strip us bare of all pretense. Empty us of self. Cause us to yearn for You alone. As we don’t understand Your ways, Abba, grow our faith in your beautiful Sovereignty. Within You alone may we find a fountain of Life and Beauty that endures. Fill us with Jesus, our True Life. Oh, how we love You! Amen
This morning in my random blog reading I linked to this blog
http://www.lhm.ca/genDisplay2.asp?Car=Just_Breathe
I was blessed with the humble words, “Empty us of self. As we don’t understand your ways, Abba, grow our faith in your beautiful Sovereignty.” Words from a woman that has dealt with a dibilitating illness for the last 25 years. This is what she has to say:
“God has somehow, in the midst of the most trying physical and mental circumstances, transformed me to someone who sees. He has freed me to see from a “glass half full.” For years I have been a person who would say, “Life is hard, but God is good.” I would speak these words to others to encourage them to continue on when things were tough; to remember God is good. Yes, there are many hard things. There is certainly nothing noble about illness, this just happens to be one of the instruments the Lord has used in my life to show me his sufficiency, to profoundly reveal himself, to teach me dependence, to bring about brokenness and to bring yielding to his will. He will do the same working in our lives through good times; bless him, as we yield ourselves to him. One thing we all have in common is that we cannot outrun or hide from challenges in life and the stress attached to them. God knows this about our days, he tells us himself, “…in this world you will have trouble. But take heart! I have overcome the world.” (John 16:33 NIV) In the past I would say, “Life is hard, but God is good.” to remind myself God is faithful. But inevitably, the big bad bully life really stole the show in that sentence. Within that statement the very strong implication is, “Life seems daunting and out of control, but in that out of control state God will be good to us.” This is backwards, with the focus being on the hardships in the world, which from what God is challenging me with recently, is a separate thing all together than the blessing of life and it’s untrue because God is in control not this world. He is still sovereign no matter what the day looks like and we will have no peace in our day until the Lord settles this in our hearts and souls once and for all. God has been challenging me thoroughly with this.
Each day now the Spirit of the Lord disciplines my soul to the reality of the sovereignty of God. Each day God brings clarity to this transformation he has wrought. When I was a “glass half empty” person I often joked about being like Eeyore yet wishing I was more like Tigger, but I see now that God took that very seriously. In truth, he has shown me clearly that I was not within my heart and soul settled upon, and trusting upon the Pure Sovereignty of God. In fact, I did not, in the secret places of soul, approve of or to be truly honest with you, trust all he allowed to touch my life or be said about my life. The Holy Spirit challenged me so thoroughly these past months with the realization that my pessimism had its roots in not trusting the sovereignty of God and he could not let that slide any longer because the tendrils of pessimism are too far reaching and far too damaging. In his amazing love God has settled this issue between us of his Perfect Sovereignty and he has truthfully challenged and absolutely thrilled me with the realization that my optimism is not a change of heart, not a new attitude, not new eyes nor rose colored glasses to gaze through. I have not become a Tigger personality or a Pollyanna. Instead, tenderly but resolutely I have been brought by the Lord, in an encounter with him, to the place where my soul feels it is in a restored posture, where as the beloved we are called to live, before my Sovereign God, my Creator, Sustainer, my Redeemer, the Lover of my Soul, “though You slay me, yet will I hope in You. My ears had heard of You, but now my eyes have seen You.” I have found rest here.
God has made me confident in his Perfect Sovereignty; I need not worry. My hope comes from him, in him. He alone is my rock and my salvation. Jesus will rejoice and celebrate with you; he will laugh with you in your joy. He will grieve with you and comfort you. He is able to walk upon those crashing waves in any storm you may find yourself and even though, the time may not be yet for the storm to end, he can say, “Peace, be still!” to the storm raging within so that against all odds, though your circumstances should crush you, you find Jesus instead makes you more whole than you have ever been. He is here alive and well. When he speaks, it is worth it all. He alone is Life. He is Beautiful! Life is Beautiful!”
I was so encouraged by these words my prayer is that all who read this will turn their eyes to the Lord and trust Him. He is a good and trustworthy God!
-BT